Thursday, November 17, 2011

ehhhh ...

I am completely fed up with everyone. Here's the thing, I grew up. I left behind all of the drama, all of the bullshit and all of the stuff that brings you down in the long run. I have lived a fairly decent life for the past almost, two years. I haven't had to deal with any drama and any bullshit. If anyone had a problem with me, they came to me privately instead of running their mouth, no one intentionally tried to screw up my life, and I figured that maybe everyone else was growing up as well.
I'm not going to lower myself to anyones level, regardless of how badly others hurt me, I'm not going to lower myself to that and hurt them back. I just can't see why someone would completely make up a story about someone, just to sit back and watch you burn? How do you live with yourself knowing that you made up an elaborate story about someone, and something that never happened and cause pain to not just one person, but two people? What honestly posses someone to do something that dirty and immature?

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

LasciarMi Vive ...

I'm pretty sure I couldn't be more sick of the bullshit that's been occuring in my life. I just wish people could let me live. It's crazy how people you legitimately trust will sell you out to the lowest bidder, even crazier when they make up lies just to hurt you and cause you trouble. Jealousy isn't cute. Some of us grew up. I'll admit to being one of the most immature, dramatic, bitches around this town ... and then I grew up. I honestly feel bad about more than half of the things I did to people, or said about people. It's funny how I turn over a new leaf, and more mature leaf and all of a sudden everyone wants a piece, everyone wants to destroy me, break me down and try to get me to lose control. Here's some news ; I won't give up, I won't give in, and I will NEVER give up on trying to live a peaceful, happy and fullfilling life.
If you have problems with me, just let me know, don't sit there spreading rumors and talking crap over fb .. grow some balls. I graduated high school years ago, and with that, I expected to leave the drama behind. Drama is for children. It's childish, it's hurtful and it's wrong. Get a grip, does it really make you feel better to make up a bunch of bull about someone and watch it hurt them? does that honestly feel good? if it does you're probably a pretty sick person and you should probably get some help.
I wish I knew exactly what it was that made me see things in a new light, but I wouldn't go back to my old ways if someone paid me. I wanted to grow up and I guess in reality you have to WANT to be an adult before you can be one.

<3 -Dena.