Monday, December 12, 2011
HOORAY!
My dad had his car towed over to John Howard this morning, which means my Subaru can FINALLY get out of the garage! I haven't driven my car in almost 3 days, I know she's eager to get out again! (:
Sunday, December 11, 2011
Bullshiting through Boredom
I could sit here and bullshit an entire blog about love, and how it fucked me up and how afraid of commitment I am now OR I could just be mature about it and say that I've only learned, positive things, from every single thing I've gone through.
I'll choose the mature approach because I have learned a lot from the experiences I've been through. I can't stand when girls make a big deal out of a break up, or a guy cheating on her. If you have to post it on facebook, even as one of those bullshit subliminal messages through song lyrics posted as your status, you probably need to look in the mirror, smack yourself & grow the hell up. Life's rough & you realistically have years to find someone to spend your life with, so LIVE in the moment, DO what you FEEL and above all BE HAPPY with the life that you're living and the lessons you've learned from it.
I'll choose the mature approach because I have learned a lot from the experiences I've been through. I can't stand when girls make a big deal out of a break up, or a guy cheating on her. If you have to post it on facebook, even as one of those bullshit subliminal messages through song lyrics posted as your status, you probably need to look in the mirror, smack yourself & grow the hell up. Life's rough & you realistically have years to find someone to spend your life with, so LIVE in the moment, DO what you FEEL and above all BE HAPPY with the life that you're living and the lessons you've learned from it.
Friday, December 2, 2011
I follow my old Twitter on my new one because sometimes, it inspires me to go back and read all of the things I posted and everything I went through.
I sound so immature and childish in all of my posts. It's hard to believe that I grew up so much since then. It's almost embarrassing to read the things I used to say! It's also sad when I read how heartbroken, happy, up and down and in between I was. I won't lie, it provoked a few tears. It's not like I ever really forgot the things I went trough, because they made me who I am but I more or less put them to the back of my mind.
Well, that was emotionally exhausting ... time for bed!
GOODNIGHT MOON // GOODNIGHT STARS ....
I sound so immature and childish in all of my posts. It's hard to believe that I grew up so much since then. It's almost embarrassing to read the things I used to say! It's also sad when I read how heartbroken, happy, up and down and in between I was. I won't lie, it provoked a few tears. It's not like I ever really forgot the things I went trough, because they made me who I am but I more or less put them to the back of my mind.
Well, that was emotionally exhausting ... time for bed!
GOODNIGHT MOON // GOODNIGHT STARS ....
Thursday, November 17, 2011
ehhhh ...
I am completely fed up with everyone. Here's the thing, I grew up. I left behind all of the drama, all of the bullshit and all of the stuff that brings you down in the long run. I have lived a fairly decent life for the past almost, two years. I haven't had to deal with any drama and any bullshit. If anyone had a problem with me, they came to me privately instead of running their mouth, no one intentionally tried to screw up my life, and I figured that maybe everyone else was growing up as well.
I'm not going to lower myself to anyones level, regardless of how badly others hurt me, I'm not going to lower myself to that and hurt them back. I just can't see why someone would completely make up a story about someone, just to sit back and watch you burn? How do you live with yourself knowing that you made up an elaborate story about someone, and something that never happened and cause pain to not just one person, but two people? What honestly posses someone to do something that dirty and immature?
I'm not going to lower myself to anyones level, regardless of how badly others hurt me, I'm not going to lower myself to that and hurt them back. I just can't see why someone would completely make up a story about someone, just to sit back and watch you burn? How do you live with yourself knowing that you made up an elaborate story about someone, and something that never happened and cause pain to not just one person, but two people? What honestly posses someone to do something that dirty and immature?
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
LasciarMi Vive ...
I'm pretty sure I couldn't be more sick of the bullshit that's been occuring in my life. I just wish people could let me live. It's crazy how people you legitimately trust will sell you out to the lowest bidder, even crazier when they make up lies just to hurt you and cause you trouble. Jealousy isn't cute. Some of us grew up. I'll admit to being one of the most immature, dramatic, bitches around this town ... and then I grew up. I honestly feel bad about more than half of the things I did to people, or said about people. It's funny how I turn over a new leaf, and more mature leaf and all of a sudden everyone wants a piece, everyone wants to destroy me, break me down and try to get me to lose control. Here's some news ; I won't give up, I won't give in, and I will NEVER give up on trying to live a peaceful, happy and fullfilling life.
If you have problems with me, just let me know, don't sit there spreading rumors and talking crap over fb .. grow some balls. I graduated high school years ago, and with that, I expected to leave the drama behind. Drama is for children. It's childish, it's hurtful and it's wrong. Get a grip, does it really make you feel better to make up a bunch of bull about someone and watch it hurt them? does that honestly feel good? if it does you're probably a pretty sick person and you should probably get some help.
I wish I knew exactly what it was that made me see things in a new light, but I wouldn't go back to my old ways if someone paid me. I wanted to grow up and I guess in reality you have to WANT to be an adult before you can be one.
<3 -Dena.
If you have problems with me, just let me know, don't sit there spreading rumors and talking crap over fb .. grow some balls. I graduated high school years ago, and with that, I expected to leave the drama behind. Drama is for children. It's childish, it's hurtful and it's wrong. Get a grip, does it really make you feel better to make up a bunch of bull about someone and watch it hurt them? does that honestly feel good? if it does you're probably a pretty sick person and you should probably get some help.
I wish I knew exactly what it was that made me see things in a new light, but I wouldn't go back to my old ways if someone paid me. I wanted to grow up and I guess in reality you have to WANT to be an adult before you can be one.
<3 -Dena.
Friday, September 2, 2011
VENTING
I guess you could say that today was the day I hit my breaking point. I thought that working at "said daycare" was going to be a wonderful experience, and it was.. up until the replaced my lead teacher.
They gave me this awful, full of herself, annoying bitch. This woman had issues with me from the second she walked in that door. I really do try to give everyone a fair chance, and I gave her one. It isn't my fault that she is an absolute wreck of an individual. Her SECOND day there, she FORBIDS me to pick up a child, a 3 month old, mind you. I'm of course in shock about this, why would you not pick up a crying infant? Her excuse? "she needs to get used to not being held." really? she's 3 months old? what else is she going to do aside from being held?
I went about my day, trying to forget about the vents and blame it on her being new .. and then she comes up to me and not only tells me to "say something to her face" but proceeds to call me a "smart alec". NOW she has gotten on my bad side. I kept on trying to deal with her, and keep my emotions in.. even though she was an absolute nut job. She'd forget to change diapers for HOURS then yell at ME for missing one kid in 1 hour? I did DAMN NEAR everything in that room .. but she claimed she did everything, and I did nothing (She's obviously DELUSIONAL as well as lazy!).
I went in yesterday, and the woman PULLS a kid out of my arms, roughly, not nicely. I went about changing the childs diaper, and playing with her on the floor for tummy time when she goes off .. again, as usual (all this woman does is BITCH!) she told me that there were 7 other kids in the room besides "said child", I told her I understood that, but the others were older and playing nicely amoughst each other... when she goes on about saying shit to her face again, and calling me names.
I literally lost it, she said she was turning me in? for what!? So I left, and went straight to the directors office to straighten this out and what happens? the bitch LIES out her HUGE NASTY ASS (I'm sure her being BFF with the director helped!) Ends up with me basically losing my position as assistant teacher and becoming a floater (fuck that!) I won't be punished for someone else's poor behavior and lack of respect.
I couldn't bring myself to even go back today ... I basically, quit. I don't deserve this and I most definitely don't get paid enough to deal with this! I spent the rest of the afternoon looking for a job on an ambulance... which I what I need! I need to get away from these uneducated women, these ignorant bitches and all the drama. I need to do what I went to school for!
They gave me this awful, full of herself, annoying bitch. This woman had issues with me from the second she walked in that door. I really do try to give everyone a fair chance, and I gave her one. It isn't my fault that she is an absolute wreck of an individual. Her SECOND day there, she FORBIDS me to pick up a child, a 3 month old, mind you. I'm of course in shock about this, why would you not pick up a crying infant? Her excuse? "she needs to get used to not being held." really? she's 3 months old? what else is she going to do aside from being held?
I went about my day, trying to forget about the vents and blame it on her being new .. and then she comes up to me and not only tells me to "say something to her face" but proceeds to call me a "smart alec". NOW she has gotten on my bad side. I kept on trying to deal with her, and keep my emotions in.. even though she was an absolute nut job. She'd forget to change diapers for HOURS then yell at ME for missing one kid in 1 hour? I did DAMN NEAR everything in that room .. but she claimed she did everything, and I did nothing (She's obviously DELUSIONAL as well as lazy!).
I went in yesterday, and the woman PULLS a kid out of my arms, roughly, not nicely. I went about changing the childs diaper, and playing with her on the floor for tummy time when she goes off .. again, as usual (all this woman does is BITCH!) she told me that there were 7 other kids in the room besides "said child", I told her I understood that, but the others were older and playing nicely amoughst each other... when she goes on about saying shit to her face again, and calling me names.
I literally lost it, she said she was turning me in? for what!? So I left, and went straight to the directors office to straighten this out and what happens? the bitch LIES out her HUGE NASTY ASS (I'm sure her being BFF with the director helped!) Ends up with me basically losing my position as assistant teacher and becoming a floater (fuck that!) I won't be punished for someone else's poor behavior and lack of respect.
I couldn't bring myself to even go back today ... I basically, quit. I don't deserve this and I most definitely don't get paid enough to deal with this! I spent the rest of the afternoon looking for a job on an ambulance... which I what I need! I need to get away from these uneducated women, these ignorant bitches and all the drama. I need to do what I went to school for!
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